nancy you must never let me but oh that thing I once must wrote
and here I fall to your defense but never exterior-strate but yet
why yes all the time I am a performer but no not
of your nefarious type
type sexy
or just
hammer to the head
well
hammered I am
and also such
a head yeh you
give it good
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Posted by Unknown at 5:36 PM |
Friday, March 26, 2004
I will but you can't make me
in slow motion here now level son my blood feels the look of things here lately on the inside more expertly than me excursive skin yeh lately this blood has been cooling
which is where you need to keep it, in the cooler in the crisper mami, I know whereof I speak, mami, I'm a man of pride
out walking alongside this one particularly muscular and true black herding dog this morning I told myself to look at distance, look at the details of the trees, many many trees wet on the hill I live by and many of them old, old pines and oaks older than you mamimissymy sister
fear not what comes fear not fear not
I told myself look at the distance and the grey morning seemed much of potential and scene fore and aft, both biblical
and pagan aftermath
Posted by Unknown at 10:17 AM |
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Monday, March 22, 2004
evaluation of the damp half-thawed
ground scored with diminishing snow grain
was overwhelmingly floaty green; this property
was hastened or fomented by a pair
of gin-and-tonics or gee and tees as I overwhemingly
prefer to think of that specialty twig borne water
before it was all through (by it
I mean the moment) I would hear a
high keening noise from the road or from
beyond the road; I thought could it be from a
truck or trailer? or could it be from the universe
sounding commendation
and scoring 1 true thought for me
because the 1 thought I was thinking was that
poetry really was one of the first and as such
one of the greatest forms of art, most essential
in cause for humanity: after all, look at Lao-Tzu
Aesop, Homer and Anonymous Ballads
Shakespeare, Lazarus and
so, that was the thought. then my munificent
black dog stood and rounded to attention when
the keening noise came and then too came the second thought
which was: well in that case I'm free
to write a really crappy novel now
because great art or not most people care not a crap
for poems but man will they never not shut up
about what polluting dumbass movies they've just seen
and how you've got to see them
too ah fuck it just send me
the jackpot Kafka and I'll mount the psychic blanket party
against all your foes
then now and to come
Posted by Unknown at 4:15 PM |
Friday, March 19, 2004
cagey
another snow-blasted March
I'm out in my writing shed
chucking another wedge of oak
into that woodstove we bought
at the flea market last year,
then back to bang on the manual.
My burden is to be the transmitter
for whatever chords of memory
or nightmare chance to band
down and through. the green
magnetic vertigo of the frequency
is something I never question.
Neither ever did you. You're tearing up
Texas again now and I'm still here.
You call some nights from some bar
or some new guy's place. The price
of transmission is how cold-blooded
you've made me become. The long
distance helps to chill the platelets. At night I sit
on the roof here and sip cheap
brandy from the bottle, smoke cigarettes
I roll myself. Damn you, God, I think.
All the ponds are still capped with ice.
The table is buried in white pages covered
in letters like mites, skin fleas, all
the insanity of the transmission. You
wondered that half-year you were here
how we'd ever get rich. I said it'll be
no sweat for you once you get shut
of me. You just hunkered down into
that Martin dreadnought and scratched
out the transmission. No brains in it either.
Just blood and heart. You the purer cipher
but then here I am, yet plugged into the wavelength
albeit by a cheap brown extension cord.
Tomorrow I'm going to wake up on the floor
out here freezing, step out, piss on the cinderblocks,
and then make my way back to the black and white kitchen
with that creepy Crazy Kat clock you gave me
that Christmas. Fucker. He's in the transmission.
Bigger wavelength than ours too.
There's going to be a message on the machine.
It's going to be you and you're going to be in some
horrible trouble. I'm going to have to spend the afternoon
tuning up the '82 Ranger God help me and then hit the road.
I'm going to incur a huge credit debt just getting down there.
When I get down there I'm going to get into a fight with a boy in a bar
and crack his head with an ashtray and fuck up my right wrist all
to hell. There's going to be a gun at some point.
I'll be like, I just want to write.
It'll be just like a movie.
Nah. Fuck it. You go to hell. Fuck all of Texas,
get strung out and die. I'm throwing another oak in the stove.
Sing a pretty little tune.
Send it out there. I'll pick it up in the transmission.
I don't have time for this bullshit I have work to do
Posted by Unknown at 8:11 AM |
Thursday, March 18, 2004
perihelion: the behavior
I make a quarter turn and gesture with a cigarette
I turn one-eighth and am handed a Cross pen
I rotate half again and am handed a receipt
I slide back once and am reminded of transgressions
I am test wheel
And answer wheel
Alone in the peristyle
Posted by Unknown at 10:03 AM |
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
climbing up the hill
toward the smoke
of the cookfire
the full moon alarming
past fractious
cloud scuttle
I am too few
bootmarks in the blue
shadow snowdrift
Posted by Unknown at 8:16 AM |
Monday, March 15, 2004
all I need at intervals is a hill
bright sunlight
pines
a German Shepherd
a pond or stream
tackle, truck
beer,
occasional smoke
then after all this,
a clear head and 3 hours
per night
with which to exercise it
after that,
everything that's ever happened to me,
every action I've ever witnessed,
every emotion I've ever felt,
should do to make
for the rest of it.
nomads I guess hear
just the other nomads
while territorial beings
fixate
on the big
dark music
between the moon
and here
Posted by Unknown at 9:09 AM |
Friday, March 12, 2004
oh and these are the worst of times when images are all blunted nullified and the word abhors oh
and of course these are not the worst of times why look
at this paradise of opportunity and all you bring to it
is you're bored? you're tired of some shit? you wish something was some other way?
yeah but it's these surroundings and yeah well tell that to
the person in jail the person in the desert the person with no car the person with no job the person with no food the person with no mind tell that
to the dead person with no one more time
Posted by Unknown at 3:26 PM |
to give pause
to take pause
to not spend a lot of time wondering
why can't it all be happening
in a funky colonial style house
with 4 guitars no cares
acclaim, a cooler head
and me some much cooler stereotype, well
you take what you have
you just have to take it
then something happened
and then I started
anew
again
Posted by Unknown at 8:29 AM |
Thursday, March 4, 2004
I don't believe in astrology except as a guide and where it seems to apply
two fish two fish two fish two fish
Posted by Unknown at 9:33 PM |
Tuesday, March 2, 2004
uh gee uh
the thing about her is that she's doing it all yeh
but ok what about what G. Flaubert famously said
about the ideal writer's ideally boring habits contrasted
with his so not boring imagination I guess
I epitomize that idea. well in fact minus any glib
shit a big part of this shit is feeling nostalgia for five
minutes ago or else 20 years ago passed in an instant
but anyway it's a new world these days, and a dangerous one
and forbidding. to a point. they say we're up here a small state
and yet outpeople up north get lost every day. traditional
lines of the American geography are bullshit. this can be
taken literally and/or as metaphor. equal application
tangentially I'll tell you I do have perverse thoughts about
certain ordinary young corporately held women seen daily and regard these
thoughts as little brothers, too dumb to know what
they're about. sex is so overrated. so not worth bothering
of course you need an outlet for sex to see this.
I never had one for years but feel so sanguine
now it gives me hope about myself.
men care about men things.
sex trouble is the trouble of boys.
no time for that now:
my anger is what troubles me. note I don't say "scares"
I don't feature any more personal apocalypes for me
unless of course I reserve one more of the deep Jungian type
but conditionally on the deep DL and no one knows. I might take one more
of those. but poetry. you can do one a day:
fiction is so much harder and I motherfuckers need to pare out
a space to write. around here I mean. Because I will not let cheesy New York
new uh huh uh huh motherfuckers win. my goal is to make my old
teacher Tony Ardizzone shocked and proud. Look What That One Did
sort of thing. I'm only half doing it now not even half
I got so many fists and barely one face to put them in except this one
right here
right here
Posted by Unknown at 10:22 PM |
Here's this to make you sick at heart.
And here's this to make you sick at heart.
And Paul Krugman better stay on the ground and out of small airplanes before someone makes a phone call and he gets the Wellstone treatment
Posted by Unknown at 3:46 PM |
Monday, March 1, 2004
The criminals in Washington
are worse than they've ever been.
Ever.
This is not an opinion.
I'd never send a son
to die
in the oil wars
and neither should you.
Evil, stupidity, cravenness
is rampant now
at a pitch never before
possible.
It's all because of someone's ATM card.
It's what the computer says.
It's what the TV says.
The tree of liberty has died.
So keep your blood inside.
You will need it in the end
Posted by Unknown at 11:32 PM |
The November sun rose firing the mist ascendant upon the Piedmont. I awoke in my faded red '87 Nova feeling sick from drinking. I was parked in the narrow, hardscrabble parking lot of Black Stump Studios, the rehearsal space.
It was my ninth night sleeping in my car's reclined bucket seat and two months since I'd left my old life.
I viewed my breath rising toward the pilly gray upholstery of the vehicle's ceiling. The gold sunlight streamed through the smudged side windows and over my battered jeans jacket.
I reclined the bucket seat upward and drew in toward myself, burying my nose beneath the smoke-smelling the found green flannel shirt I'd begun wearing as liner since the weather had broken cold, smelling my filthy blue undershirt.
I had a wool overcoat stored at the self-storage cubicle I shared in Sandy Springs, and I'd go dig it out today. First I'd have to get gasoline for the car.
Before that I'd need coffee.
I wondered how much money I had left on me.
Posted by Unknown at 11:23 PM |